"Seeing people change isn’t what hurts.
What hurts is remembering who they used to be."

Frankly speaking, it did did did hurt very much. It's like a knife not only it's been stabbed but been also twirled painfully. I hope i'm strong enough to face the fact very very soon. Well, actually i'm counting the days as well painfully. Counting down to your one big day. It's all gonna be soon. You, being someone else's arms. I've to face the reality soon and it will change. There's nothing abt me so-called special so might as well i let it go painfully but i think that the best of all. After twice of thoughts, it's better seeing you (dat amended those broken heart) being wif someone else rather than me. Like this saying, "If we are meant to be, we're meant to be". We may like or have feelings for each other, but not every liking needs to be with each other. I know we're not meant for each other and i'm not being selfish when it comes to this. When i like someone (dats include anyone even friends), seeing them happy is priceless to me though in the end, i'm the one ended up the opposite *sighs*. Coz being with me, really doent bring anything special to it. I always be the opposite of the good. Hmm, what to do. Nasib badanku. Come to think of it, there's obstruction too. Being someone much much 6 yrs older than me, even ur partner just 2 yrs younger than u. U're someone close with all the 'abgs' at work. I knew too u once u had a r'shp wif someone that's the same age wif me but aha ah i was older than her by months yayaya mcm mcm ah cerita pasal kau zaman ketika dahulu. I've no rights to ranked up ur past. Hmmm. Oh well, what's the use crying something not worth it. No use crying over spill milk. Maybe God trying to tell me something. Maybeee. I did tried to control very very hard, i always told myself u're strong YES! You are but my hearts doesn't seem to go that way. It's uncontrollable. I jolly well know it wont change. I do hope there's always a story behind it. But still i'm normal, i've my own weaknesses too. Am i not being honest to myself? Am i being denial? Am i hypocrite? The least is i learned something from there ='( Aww i'm teared. Teared of joy n sad =)

Oh well! People Happy Ramadhan.